save me from myself

It's not so easy loving me
It gets so complicated
All the things you gotta be
Everything's changing
But you're the truth
I'm amazed by all your patience
Everything I put you through

when I'm about to fall
Somehow you're always waiting with 
Your open arms to catch me
You're gonna save me from myself
From myself, yes
You're gonna save me from myself

My love is tainted by your touch
Well some guys have shown me aces
But you've got that royal flush
I know it's crazy everyday
Well tomorrow may be shaky
But you never turn away

Don't ask me why I'm crying
'Cause when I start to crumble
You know how to keep me smiling
You always save me from myself
From myself, myself
You're gonna save me from myself

I know it's hard, it's hard
But you've broken all my walls
You've been my strength, so strong
And don't ask me why I love you

It's obvious your tenderness
Is what I need to make me
A better woman to myself
To myself, myself
You're gonna save me from myself

We cant never forces………

            Well…I’m back!!heheheh…soie quite sumtimes didn’t rite anytink in dis blog…em, my final exams is damn unpredictable…hard n as I cn say…SUCKS!!since our target question did not appear at all..huargh!!!!well, my life so like dat…although human r easy to b predictable..bt not da situation okey…I’m not as strong as b4…I’ve lost him…n going to lose another one…usually when dis words came out from my mouth, I’ll be very epy…bt not dis time…LOVE…I might not noe what does true love means, since I never allowed it happened although juz for once…for me love is pain…no matter in wut way…really pain…love to me is universal…love to lovers…to family…sister’s….brother’s…friends….life….living things n to mother nature…dis is what love means to me…bt we can’t never forced people to do da same to us am I rite???kill me if u want to…bt I’m not going to change my love meaning…I luv bears…I have more than 30 bears…love it so much!!!!especially when I get it from people…da biggest 1 I get it as presents from sumone…luv it so much…it always accompany me…while I sleep…n study…each and every of my bears got their own name…Guinevere is da biggest one…ming2 is from my sis…alex is from my besties….and others dat I cant really remember from who…wanna noe their name?? Angelo, donatello, Raphael, Leonardo, Michael, Sammy, Angie…others r according o their own characters like tweety, Sylvester and etc…I wanted to buy wonderpets bears…anybody noe any shop dat sell dis three characters???let me noe k…hehehheeh…em, well, since I’ve sick of giving without receiving…now, I started to believe wut I used to believe…love my self..n dem who need my love…if theres any r an…huhu…well, guys..later I’ll update more…since my jet audio..from jz now kept playg all da sad songs…wanna cry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!huarghhhhh….later….

 

  

ikhlas...

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ketika mentari tak sanggup lagi berjanji
menyinari dunia yang tlah kau singahi

mapukah kau untuk berbagi
tanpa hasrat ingin diberi
dihadapanNya
dihadapanNya ya Allah

sesungguhnya manusia tak kan bisa
menikmati surga
tanpa ikhlas di hatinya
sesungguhnya manusia tak kan bisa
menyentuh nikmatNya
tanpa tulus dihatinya

Happy mother’s day…

            Well, on the 10^th of  May..me n ma famly celebrated 2 occasions…first is my niece b’day…dat is Nina…then, mother’s day…we have a small party..not actually a party as I cn say..only dat mama invited all her siblings for that occasions…so I called it as a  party…hahahah…well, last Friday, bg cik had an xcident..kind of horror, since kak ayu badly injured..pity her so much…I dun have any mercy towards my bro…coz I pity kak ayu so much…since she’s badly injured in dat xcident…well, kak ayu cn eat now…although juz nestum..bt at least she can eat..her mak teh told bg cik dat kak ayu might be at da hospital 4 3 to 6 months…I’ll visit her as often as as I cn…ma bro is at home already..if only I cn break his other hand for doing such stupid action to me…huh!!em, abg is not back dis week…kind of sad with dis situation…act I wanted to talk to sumbody coz I can’t really take all dis anymore..bt seems like everyone is avoiding me lately…so, let me keep it as my secret…although its quite hard 4 me to do dat…bt I dun wanna to burden them anymore…yesterday, I got my attack again…may b coz I’ve stop taking dat stupid medicine…I wanted to live normal…without any medicine…those who read my blogs today…dun u worry, I’m okey…coz if I’m not okey, I won’t be typing dis blog..coz I’ll might end up at the mourn house…huhu..i’m okey ya guys…muahhhhhhh…to kakak, soie coz think like dat yesterday…really depressed…huhu…bt not with u…with others…hurm, next 2 weeks will be my final exms…so might not updating my blogs more until my final finished…okey….laterrrrrr…..

I am me…so what???

Last Monday..i’m in true depressing situation…after gaining again my strength, I’m back to me today…I had enough to be in such sad situation juz bcoz people dun wanna to b friends with me anymore..hey, dude…I now u’re reading my blog…so, I dun care anymore!!!!!i can live on my own…I cn live as who I want to b…I cn do anytink dat I wanted to do…I dun need any of ur guard to make me save anymore…I noe hw to handle them on my own…so, plizz..stop!!sumtimes I wonder, y did I ever make involve my self into dis kind of situation..i had juz enough..i’ll be back to me..the true me…da old me…coz while I’m in dat life, my liofe as not as miserable as today..thanx to u dude for doing dat rite???well, although I might be back to da old me..i’ll not do anytink dat I promised sumone dat I’ll stop from doing it..i’ll tried all I can…as long as I still have the guts, I’ll continue denying what I wanted to…okey..later guys…

Happiness sold separately…

            Hurm, what a title rite..hahah…well, while I’m typing dis..actually, I’m little bit sad..but I’m okey I think…hurm, do u ever think to have another life??in other words, imagining dat our life like birds..bears..or even other people life??of coz yes rite..well, yesterday morning, while having my bekfes..my mother opened our house back door..behind my house, there’s 4 kitten with cute and adorable faces..hehe…I watched this cute creature playing around their mother..biting their mother tail..climb up their mother head and playing with each other…what a cute creature..suddenly..sumtink came up to my mind..if ever I can live as happy as dis young kitten..not to say dat my life is not happy…I’m a very epy person…but from da problem side..this kitten seems to b epy with their life..without the need of thinking such lame problems..thinking what others said bout u..or others stupid Q…huh!!!cn u just imagine life as free as dat??if I got da chance to have dat kind of life..only for one day…I’ll live dat life as proper as I can..n I’ll be the happiest person in da world..i bet u…bt what can we do..happiness do sold separately..later…..

 

 

the reason

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

Journey will never end…

 

            As u may notice..dis is my blog page title…been as blogger for 6 months..equal to da time I stooped taking all stupid stuff…I’m da new me today..thanx a lot to the person dat change me 100% since da day we met..can't really imagine dis kind of  situation will happened to me…well guys..actually, now I’m really in big dilemma..i took dis one medicine..to stop me from sumtink..as I cn say..its a medicine to cure me..of coz r an…cheh…well, dis medicine gave me side effect..really bad side effects..n it really turn my hyper energy upside down..huhu..i’ve tried to stop taking da medicine..for 1 day…bt it will only make my addiction back…well…kind of FUCK r an!!!i’m very irritated with my own life at da moment…huh!!!well, guys…I’ll stop here…later I’ll update sumore..laterrrr….

Epilogue for my hearts

 

            Dis time I wanna share with u guys, what they mean to me..

 

Kak Anis…

The only senior dat really understand me lots..

Not only senior…

She is my sister…

She who I care a lot…

She turn me to sumbody I never expect I will be…

I’m da new me today…

She stopped me from doing non sense and really take a good care of me…

 

Ak….

My babe from 1^st sem…

Stylo…and cute..haha…

Brilliant ideas in editing..

Slow poke…bt always there when u need sumtink…

 

Fit3..

My brother..

Might be a little bit diva..

But always be there for u..

Love to protests me and kakak…huhu..

Mystery guy with 1001 personalities…

 

Wan..

My 1^st husband…

Haahah…

Tough and did not scared of anytink…

Sumtink dat u didn’t noe bout him..

I noe..

Caring and will be there always…

 

Emy…

Sumtink we have in common…

Football..

Heheheh..

Man u is da best..

Always have a cat mouse figyt with me..

So lame…

Hahahahah

 

Nasir..

Broother to me..

Got it how to pronounce it?

Ahahahahah…

Love to bully others..

Straight forward person…

Caring.

Protective as I cn say…

 

Boy…

My scandal..

Cute..charming…

Mangse bully…

Caring and sweet..

 

Adi..

Another scandal of me..

Straight forward person…

Tough and protective..

Easygoing..

Open minded..

 

Ekin..

My 3^rd scandals..

Hahahha..

Sweetheart to Nasir…

Chubby as I can say…

Outspoken..

Brave..

And caring..

Always there when u need her…

 

Dauz…

Korean boy with Korean style of coz…

Skinny or I love to say…cikeding…hahahah

Caring..

Can be rely on..

 

No matter what happen to me…u all will be here rite inside my heart..always…tc..love u guys all…muahhhhhhhhhhhxxxxx..xoxo