Happy Fasting!!!!

Well..now, we’re in fasting month..month where we will be tested by Allah…month where Muslims needs to stop doing non sense n start thinking bout their future…n makes good deeds…well, as I cn say lar…huhu..today is da 3^rd day of fsting..n Alhamdulillah…I got all 4days full despite my illness..well, I think it all depends on mind over matters..aite??i got new person in my life…well, not 1 bt 2…but neither of them cn replace ur place in my heart…I receive a called from k.liana…yesterday morning…she sound sad..this week gonna be her last week as a practical student at SJMC..she wanted to meet me..bt unfortunately..i had finished my treatment…bt kak liana..i promise..i’ll meet u dis weekend..i’ll be there…she da one dat I cn say…give a lot of courage and spirit to me while I’ve been admitted..she’s da one dat never failed to smile even 1 seconds…dat what makes u special I think…u remind me of sumone dat b4 this really care for me…bt we cn only planned..and the decision is still his..so, redha…urm, I cn say..i hope I’ll get to reach my fasting target day…bt if anytink happened at the middle of it..i cn only redha aite??i’ve found 3 house to be rent…one in margosa height, kg jiboi baru n warisan pu3…I tried to convince papa..bt his answer r still NO!!n my sis also got da same answer like papa…may be they’re rite…if anything happen to me..i’m all alone at the house..so, it cn cause a very worst case scenario..so, I have to obey them dis time…I’m starting to do all my old habits again…for 1 whole month…n now I’m stopping again…coz it really effects me…so, pray for me..while I’m typing dis…I’m really in bad shape..since I had just been attacked by my cuzen…dumb2 u..hahahaahh…bt all I cn say…without u guys in my life…I dun tink I will still sitting rite here..typing all da words in my heart..so, thanx a lot…selamat berpuase guys…no cheating ya…ehhheehe….laterrrr….muahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Where r ur humanity n mentality ha??????

Em, well..yesterday I read da newspaper…let me tell u dis 1st…in past few days…there’s lots of news dat mentioning about people throwing their CHILDREN!!!FUCK…BUSTARD….n LOSER…yes…they who threw their children r COWARD!!!every time such news come out…n I read it..deep inside me..i really wann kill da BUSTARD dat do such things to small baby like dat…I hate when children n women been do such way…I jz dun like it…back to my orignl story…yesterday KOSMO!...front page…a baby(juz left head n sum parts of da body….)been eaten by IGUANA…well…what if I put u in dat baby place…hw do u feel???huh!!!!i hate r…really hate it!!!!laterrrrrr

I KNOW THIS MUCH IS TRUE…..

Well, kind of cliché to hear such words…well, actually, I’m gaining all da power…energy dat I really need to go through all my life…to have such great family…parents who really cares for me…I have 3 besties dat I really love…I got great cuzens….n so do..great college family…bt…(there’s always a but rite??)I dun really noe…what I wanted from my life now…I want more…bt I dunno what???cn u juz imagine dat???huh!!pathetic!!i wanted to b like phoenix…I cn always fly freely…I got da power..da beauty of sumtink…act, I’m not a beautiful gul…bt I am very thankful to Allah for creating me like dis…at least I cn c da bad side of da world…actually, world is seen as a bad side bcoz of us HUMAN!!we made the world like this…we split out da dark color to it…cn u never realized it???i hate when people kept saying dat they will love u till end of time..bt in facts..they dun…so, dun make a promise if u can fulfill it…promise dat they never leave u alone..all dat r juz a lie beneath words…huh!!i experienced it so many time..n kind of irritating with it now…so, dun make a promise if u cant fulfill it…okey…if u cn be strong now..i’m sure u cn go through all da pain after dis..believe me…I’m one of them…act, b4 I posted this blog…I’m really down…my body been hurt…I felt like I’m dying..i’m no more..no one lovers…they juz pretnding to care for me…bt in facts NO!!(not u…okey)bt then I realized sumtink..i tink I’m juz a BIG BURDEN to them..so, I stooped now…ya rite now…so dat I won’t hurt any human feelings again coz I realized dat I kept hurting others recently..although it not really my mistakes…okey…laterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr….

Party..clubbing….laugh…n having fun…..

Well….on weekend…I had most fun in my life..hehee….actually, I should go to kelantan to visit my grandma…bt then, we changed da plan..i got a called from my cuzen..inviting me to zouk for her 21^st bday party…n guess da theme…WILD…hahahahah…then, I called few of my cuzen..asking them r they going…n I cn say all of us r there…I meant all my cuzens..hahaha…n u wanna noe what am I wearing???i went there as a really fashion disaster(thanx to ak)hehehe…

I wore a long sleeve boxes shirt…short(boxer..also boxes…) and belt…hahahaha…with my blue sandle…hahahah..really fashion disaster…I thought of wearing bikini..bt…allaalla….hahahhah…like I dare to do such things rite??ngeeeeeeee….then, there…I really had sooooooooooooooo much fun…I dance with my cuzzy(although I’m nt really gud in dancing…)I’ve been dare by them to do sumtink..(lets not mention it here)hahhaha….em, now..i had forget everytink dat happened to me past few weeks…really….n I dun give a damn shit to everytink now…ahhaaha…day b4 dat..i went to sepang n had soo much fun riding up da scrambler…although sumone did said dat cn I ride it(dun underestimate me!!!)n I got new bunch of frenz now..hahaha..to kiki,dory n drew…I had so much fun riding with u guys n be ur trainee…heheheeh…n to my paragliding instructor…mr Ahmad…thanx 4 da guide…I’ll try my best to improve my skills more….n to dr kimi…stop bully me!!!!!hahahahahahaahha…em, okey r…guy…I had soo much fun this weekend…n I hope it will continue after dis….hahahaha..laterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr….

True friendship is like sound health…

The value of it is seldom know until it be lost….

I saw this phases as I cn say at the wall of da hospital….well, guys…like most of u noe..i been attacked by hypertensi last Wednesday….really bad…n I cried…(segan kot)..to all u…ak, fit3, emy, wan, nurul, kakak, kak ayu, kak aween, kak dudu, kak fyna, kak lyssa, amir, dauz, kak my, kak lala n those yg I x ingt sgt smalam(STML)..thanx a lot for da care ya..really love u guys…sumtimes, we never noe da true friendship until such situation happened..lucky 4 me..my hypertensi did not strike my heart…n it strikes up my abdomen…if it strikes my heart…I’m might be dead by now…to kak dudu..thanx coz make me laugh dat day…although I’m in pained..bt at least I felt da feeling to laugh…hehe…furthermore, other reason for my abdomen to be jem r one of da point for me to be dat damn F***ing pain…okey guys…dis weekend I’ll have da most fun in my life since now I often sad…for sumtink dat dun really deserve my tears…I’ll go to da motocross racing park(yehaaaaaaaaaaaaaa)…paragliding….n nt to forget…my paintball…hahahahaah…really wanna have fun…dun worry guys..i’ve took life insurance…so, if I die…I got da insurance..hehehehe….well, in b.comm class yesterday…I kept laughing with my fwens….esp kak ayu..she always makes mistakes dat make me wanna laugh…ahhahahaahahha..siyes!!!n I said dis..if tonite I die..i’ll be da most happiest person in world..hahahah…coz I had laugh with all of u…hehehehhe…guys…I juz wanted to say dis…if one day..my heart stop beating…I hope I won’t stop beating in ur heart…coz I wanna c u all smile..laugh…everyday….makes me be there always…with u guys….n I really appreciate all what u hve done 4 me..really appreciate it from da bottom of my heart….n laterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr…..

Discrimination….y does it still exist????

I am a SMOKER…
I am a HIV positive….
I am an EX-Convict….
I am a GAY….
I am addicted to DRUG…
I am a CANCER patient….
I am a REFUGEES….
I am a KILLER….
I am a CONVERT….
I am FAT….
I am ANAROX….
I am HYPER….
I am BOYISH…..


……so what???y??......

All dis kind of statement….as I cn say…I always hear it from others….n few of it r connected to me….well…nt dat I wanted to “fire” anybody here…bt…jz wanted to asked u guys…y does discrimination still exist???Y??you should b lucky dat u r not like dat…bt y must u discriminate them??y??easy r answer…n soie too…all of u who always discriminate people…r STUPID MORON!!!!!soie to say dis..bt it is da facts….people kept questioning me….y am I one of da volunteers 4 da HIV/AIDS societies…guys…dun asked me such lame Q…easy answer…I’m nt a perfect human in dis world…n I’m nt a superhuman too…I’m juz one little hyper, boyish gul…who only noe hw to make people laugh…at least…whenever I’m with dis kids…I felt…I noe da true pained r…they dun easily give up their life…until da time arrived…people always thought dat when we r a smoker…killer…HIV positives…they r a bad person…snap2…wake up babe…they have their own reason for all dat…they said dat HIV positives r them who make sex n take drug people…hell ya…guys….cn a small kid age 6 months take drugs???having sex????hey…dun act stupid..n dun try to b stupid….sit back n tink bout it…dis kind of random cases cn b happening to one of ur family members too…including u…yup u…da one who’s reading my blog at da moment…actually…I pity u guys for nt having da sense of huminity…hurm…so sad if I’m at ur position…okey….well..i believe in KARMA…if we do sumtink to people..we’ll get it back…n guess what…if u do sumtink such like discriminating people up on da list….sooner o later….u’ll get it back…n might b worst…remember….our life r nt always on the top…make others suffer now…n u’ll get it back…latetrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr….

da meaning of it....

* Abstract thoughts
* Loves reality and abstract
* Intelligent and clever
* Changing personality
* Temperamental
* Quiet, shy and humble
* Honest and loyal
* Determined to reach goals
* Loves freedom
* Rebellious when restricted
* Loves aggressiveness
* Too sensitive and easily hurt
* Showing anger easily
* Dislike unnecessary things
* Loves making friends but rarely shows it
* Daring and stubborn
* Ambitious
* Realizng dreams and hopes
* Sharp
* Loves entertainment and leisure
* Romantic on the inside not outside
* Superstitious and ludicrous
* Spendthrift
* Learns to show emotions